The last time I saw mom was last Sunday. The Community* is still under quarantined for influenza A. Due to me having a second surgery on my foot last Friday, I was skeptical to take the chance of getting sick and having to postpone my surgery. During my last visit with mom, I was surrounded by other residents who were coughing, sneezing, and gagging. I had informed mom and the nursing staff that I was going in for surgery so they would know why I would not be able to visit for a little while.
Mom is always on my mind. I call the nurses’ station daily to check and see how she is doing. The same answer I receive is ‘your mom is very confused and we cannot understand her’. I am so saddened by these statements.
Mom will not talk on the phone and I understand her reasons why. Right now mom has a difficult time understanding what anyone is saying to her much less being able to hold any conversation. Fortunately both of my brothers have seen mom during the week when I was unable to visit. She still recognizes us.
Yesterday was a very painful day for me with regard to my foot pain; I did absolutely nothing but slept or complained on how much pain I was in. Today is so much better. I am actually being productive. I am so excited that I am back working on a Christmas present for mom that I have been working on for weeks. I am making her a video of her life. I plan to take my computer to her tomorrow so we can watch the video together. The video shows mom’s entire life including all her family and friends who love her.
Tomorrow I will wake up with the excitement of a little kid on Christmas morning to go visit mom and give her my gift. I hope she will be able to enjoy the video with me. Most importantly, I hope she will feel the love from everyone whose lives she has touched through the years.